I never realized when I said good bye, it would be the last time we ever
spoke. I didn't realize that you would just walk out of my life like
that, leaving me standing here, broken and cold. I thought you loved me,
but I guess not. Or maybe you never did and this was all a lie, a lie
that I have lived with. Or maybe it is my fault that you are now gone,
maybe I wasn't good enough. All I know is that you have left me to
myself, and I loved you.
I loved you with so much of myself that it
hurt and now I realize that I never understood. Everything reminds me of
you, songs and people on the TV. How could you leave me? Desert me like
you did, was I not broken enough before you? People tell me that I
deserve better, but maybe I didn't even deserve you. Maybe I deserve the
pain that you left me in and maybe I deserve everything I have ever
experienced.
But I loved you! I Loved You, with so much of my soul
that there was none left to give anyone else. My heart lays in
disrepair, shattered by the love I had for you. If love is like this, I
don't want any part of it. Love is a poison. But what a beautiful way to
die. I fear this love which destroyed me and now I lay here, broken and
bleeding. I can take this no longer. Let me die, because this is no way
to live.
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